sunshine

when i gonna have my sunshine
when i gonna resist my darkness
WHEN

this is a unknown for me,,
no matter how sad i am...
i decided wont tell anybody..
if there are any mistaken and unconvenience cause
I am SORRY

i just wan to be alone..
i hate those people are realistic while we treat them with the truly heart

NOTHING gonna changes my life
if i continue my life like tat..

stay happy..
as i told my friend to be happy
but

i cant do so as well...
i try to manage all my private things as good as possible
but
 i
failed....

if you are my firend....
pls..
when i wanna stay alone
pls let me go...

i hate people say me EMO
WTF
i dun have...

i juz thinking something that affect my mood...
many peope will tell me dun think, whenever how hard i try...
this obstacles and problem wont dissapear on my mind
FOREVER

FOR EHY:
i just try to let u go,but u not understand and wan blame me
ya..compare with previous u looking good but how am i??
i am not such good at all coz i changes ady..
i doe no what is HAPPINESS in my world..
only at hometown i can enjoy that HAPPINESS for a moment

u concern me, i appreciate
but so sorry to say that:"alone is better"

i enjoy playing basketball with them
enjoying snooker with them
enjoying drunk at dog house
enjoying gambling with them
enjoying shopping with them
i enjoy everything with such friend at least they treat u as a friend no matter who u r...

they are my good friend for my life..
u will hestitate who are them
they are..ah mo, doggie, jeffrey,ah neh, botak, albert, panda, ah kiam....
i know u know who are they...
if u know, u sure know when we are together wat 38 things will we do...

about that girl...i can say that we really a friend...
if u feel doubt about it nothing more i can comment
she is a good girl...when i got problem i will find her as well

few year ago ya i will

but after i come here i scare to find her anymore...
she looks so down, i doe wan to ma fan her....
so i learn how to alone..
thats why i prefer my ffriend happy than i coz my problem wont solve for my life...

SORRY...that 81 days i try to love u at that time...
1 years ago liao,,i very hate u
but i cant scold u and angry u
everything finish...

i wan to fight for my future..
next time exam must study hard ar...(for all my friend)

@#$%

why suddenly i feel so lonely and scary..
i see u smile i very happy but at the same time...i feel stress while facing u....
i doe wan like tat..
why every people say me looks so tension and pressure...
AM I??
i juz thinking all those things nia..
i juz wan hold ur hand and walking around...
distance for doing so is not far but CAN i???