不玩了~~

累了~~
被玩是多么辛苦~
但主角是你的话,我愿意被你玩一辈子~~
还喜欢吃炒饭吗？？
不健康啊~~傻婆~
你啊~~宁愿你吃板面都不要你随便吃
很想在哭的时候大喊，我想你~~


圣诞前夕,想起你了~~
还记得我们那天都很忙~~但我们最美好的时光不是什么日子~
而是我们一起的每一天~~
那天在朋友车，我很想哭~~
不久有两位下车拿货了~~我对一个女孩说~~
："忽然不想去了"
不是我要放飞机或扫兴~~
但是我真的很想流泪~~
我很怕他没陪你~~
不许有这种男友那么对你~~虽然不管我的事~~
就是因为我不好，我想你现在过得比我开心~~
妈咪说：“我对你好像玩玩”
其实她其实不知道，一直以来，我的心都在你那儿~
虽然我们不是朋友了~~但内心总是否认我对你的感觉~~
因为我再也不行了~~

我能吗？？
你要照顾好自己知道吗？在梦或许能传达给你吧~~
知道你了解我，那你就让我内疚哭着一辈子吧~~
如果那天有新的她，她能接受我内心的软弱吗？？
能把肩膀让我靠吗？
可是我答应自己会把下个女友疼得好好的~~
但我就快死了，还能吗？？
或许等到那天我成为植物人了，都没人让我更爱你~~
或许感情就是需要慢慢培养吧？？ 对吗 girl?
girl,我不需要别人同情我因为他们不了解~~
你看过我病发的时候是多么辛苦
没人信不用紧，我只希望等到那天我变成废人时
你对我说，我们做朋友吧~~
那时我就会对你说，“abi 把所有东西都放进心里了~~
我会把你给的东西都扔了因为我们可以做朋友不用再怀念了”~~
在我病发的时候，你总是记得提醒我吃药
虽然千万个不愿意但你的话我还是听~~
你还唬我说，如果我不吃药，等下就不让我带你出去吃午餐~~
没了你的日子，我很少写部落了因为我少了最衷心的支持者
我开始了写日记
最后，请别恨我了~~好吗？希望哪天我真的对这社会厌倦了
你会对我说， 加油

 kyee and eric and yenn rou
对不起,那天心情不是很好，或许我装扮得很好

1-12-2012

i cry again...
can someoone please help me ?

12-11-2011

because of that fucking people makes u unhappy...
my heart is break and this time i cry again....
i so laoya right??haha...
i know i am useless....
i am sorry

6-11-2011

finally i am sick again....
oh gosh...
who can help me actually??
y i always sick de??
haiz...feels like doe wan stay in this world somemore...
i am tired, helpless and moody...

M.Y.C:
i doe wan u like me actually...
do u still remember i told u before i just want everyone happy...
doe wan u live under the shadow~~
its useless...
i doe wan go for class, doe wan work because i knew that if one day i helped u ady..
i will very happy then now...
at least u r happy everyday...
lastly, wish u all the best....

S.T.I.L.Y

我既然把你推给他~~
你说的时候‘，我泪流了~~
心痛了~~哈哈~~
原来我那么笨~~

原来我也笨到这种地步~~

E.M.Y.C

i like u but i cant stay beside u...
someone will better than me to help and love u...
i am not qualify yet...
i will be u thr when u needs me...
trust me...
sorry and have a nice day in ur coming future

Unpredictable and unexpected...

DUN EMO LORH...

它会“带领”你迈向衰老的境界
衰老不用紧，但会有心脏病
有心脏病也算了
它会让你有鱼尾纹
鱼尾纹也都罢。
你知道还会怎样吗？？
还会变丑耶~~
女生都爱美嘛~~

所以你肯定接受不到~~
你这样下去不单只有这些哦~~
剃度做尼姑的巴仙又上升了~~
这样不对哦~~

我知道我很多事但是呢~~还是希望你开心~~
认识你第一天就这样了~~
那我看我应该远离你了~~
这样你就会开心了~~

加油吧~~

当你接受不到一件事时，把它“们”当成你这一生中必须经过的

并当成一个转折点，或许你会开心吧~~


if not u may try write blog to express ur feeling...
i can see ur blog and i will not so free and boring everyday

well, wish u have a better tomorrow and today everyday...xD..cheers ^^

everday i suffling

Currently I am on my way to Melaka…

Suddenly my mind comes out with so many things either I am in LRT station or bus station…

I am keep thinking if I waste my money to buy those miscellaneous stuff like calvin klein perfume that costs RM320, Samsung galaxy s2 that cost around RM 1500…

although I am using my money to buy it…

All of sudden, I feels want to buy car rather than spending money on those “STUPID” stuff….i wish to get a toyota vios in advance but with my low income every month how could I sustain??

I doe wan use my family money anymore…I wish to contribute more effort on my work so that I can earn more…as I saw today newspaper, no matter surplus or shortage, government will not easily lower down the prices of the food….

firstly, I am mad while I am reading that articles….today the star….

I am fucking angry with that, this does not make sense… it is not reasonable, why during the economic crisis, government can easily increase the price but why cant lower than the price even not in economic crisis…..for me, Malaysia is full of darkness…in front the citizens said: satu Malaysia…but for me, in this country only satu colours…NAH..o0o…pissed off…..]

Based on the budget 2011, why our prime minister can increase the subsidy for the soldiers..malaysia facing the big obstacles now that need to war with CHINA,RUSSIA and USA??

Ok,fine…u increase ur pasal, why our daigor wanna reduced the subsidy for the education field for 30%?? fucking brainless…I tell u….

Unfortunately, I was born in this country…anyone can tell me why??

Although Malaysia dun have any natural disaster or war…but where is the democratic that we are looking or even waiting?? Ya we got the democratic but only for the MCA….

Can I know why the labor force in malaysia is SLIGHTLY higher than the Indian in malaysia??

Or this is freaky funny….

Argh….i have no idea how to proceed my pathway with this society and environment…..

I am suffering and thinking is that I could and have the ability or capability to sustain under this situation…

Definitely, I have no idea…

Can someone please guide me and correct me so that I can follow the best pathway…

By this, It recall me that a poem that studied in form 4 or 5..it names as “The Road Not Taken”….

According to my Chinese philosophy, 人生没有的回头…

It takes risk…

SCENE OF MEMORIES

This picture is during my secondary that joined a team name call kadet reporter for sin chew daily..i was the vice president for my on duty year,,,sweet memories

first gathering for the 20th kadet reporter for melaka branch sin chew daily reporter....red colour shirt that one is our president during on duty years...beside her is me and another one is vice president as well...wahaha....so i sit chairs..

following outing with my best friend and "younger sister"...she quite pretty actually....wahaha

my UTAR housemate in the year 2009-2010...haha..too boring so we take picture at that time...xD

one of my brother...this pic had been taken while we are celebrating my ex-ex girl friend birthday in port dickson..

seriously i like this hair colours so muchieee....auburn brown...love it so muchiieee...haha...xD...
this picture had been taken in penang hotel while brother's second trip...nice trip ever...

my brother that had met an accident last year 10-10-2010..when we coming back from penang we go UM and visit him as well as celebrate brithday with him...hope all the best for him^^...

although i had a ton of happy moment before but my mood is totally

i am sorry

S= him
 will use to represent that person

此刻的我真的睡不着，
原本我不知道发生什么事为何那么多人不开心的~~
但junhou问我东西后，我就知道了~~

首先，我想说声对不起
因为如果我听junhou说买一支就没事~~
是我自作主张买了两支

TO: ron, justin, wei yee, darren and mei yeng
i am so sorry that happened this scenario...
i swear, i just c S hug all the girl excluding carmen and dolly...
i din say anything because S hug justin as well...
i thought he wan to console all drunker to sleep at that time..
by the way, is out of my expectation...sorry..
although i feel curious why S always ask us to go out from the room but i still keep silent at that time...
and i know carmen was inside the room it will not happen anything...

sorry, is my mistake...i keep myself awake and not to get drunk because i wanna clean all those rubbish... and i feel scary...
i know u all know that what S told me when smoking together with me....

i am not wan to explain anything...i an here to say sorry to u all...


me= anderson lee wei chieng promised that i will not bring any alcohol along while we go for trip...


weiyee: i think u know why ady what i told u not to drink alcohol anymore and ask u those weird question while we coming back to gombak...
meiyeng: i really dunno this things happened on u too...for u, i am so sorry....

cry

Time goes so fast…

Money makes world turn around…

I am totally disappointed and hurt…

Feels wanna cry loudly…

While refers back to my contact lists it just a joke…

I cant even find one people to chat with me…

I found one girls that remind me and makes me recall back my memory...

 i should thanks her a lot....
feels wanna cry at this moment but who should i talk to??
maybe i am just like a girl...
but besides cry i dunno how to express my feeling....
play basketball??NO...i have compression on my nerve roots..cannot...
snooker??waste money...
find my friend to chat??they no time...
i am so sorry about this...

one people that important in my life before

BUENO....
christpy....
rocky....
junk food that u like to eat ever....we cannot be friend anymore...
i know u got new boy friend ady...that people is with my expectation...
so i not curious at all....
pls look at my condition just now....
u will surprise...

i understood ur feelings nowsaday but i am here to wish u have a better life in the future...
wcm: sorry what i did before, i cant even forgive myself now..i found it ridiculous that i am so childish while making that rubbish decision...
u not need escaping me anymore...
pls love urself much ok??
maybe one day i will not around anymore...anderson will leave forever....

~.~

everything is my fault...
although i feels very tired while everything is happening....
i know sometimes is not my fault but i  still choose to say sorry first
becoz i appreciate our relationship wish to last longer....
definitely, i love you...
seriously, tired ady

LAST

today is my last day to wish u here....
wish u all the best on ur exam....good luck....bb....

memories

best memories between us...

11march 2011

i was angry and upset what my mum did on me...
i know she stay away from my friends
due to they are working not studying..it might influence you...
Seriously, i like to hang out with friends everyday night...
but i have no choice because they working what...

For me,

NO MORE REBELLIOUS

NO MORE CHILDISH

Try not to use this two fucking words on me...
Damn hate it~~

At least i know i done my things before i hang out with them...
is they any wrong??
Feels don't want to back hometown anymore...
whats the different between KL and Melaka??
KL-Alone,FB, watch PPS
Melaka- Alone, FB ,watch PPS
Opps, ya i know the differences...i may easily get scold from my mum....

----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Minn:

i miss the day we been together...
smile, play and hang out together...
LIES is behind my smile...
i lying myself everyday...
u cant help me anymore...
i am the FOOL crying everyday...
i am an IDIOT tolerate with ur busy life...
~~~which is no phone call....
i am the freaky STUPID guys miss u everyday...

For me, there are nothing...
when the day we have been together,
i knew that no more puppy love in my life
because i found my TRUE LOVE
and that Is YOU...

My lovely MINN...

well, all the best in your final...
jiayou^^

挑战

过了5个月的挑战
彼此间又多了个挑战~
这次时间较短,只有两个月半~

我不知我能不能忍受到
但我答应我尽量好吗？
我也担心我答应了做不到~
希望我们都不会再有问题~

刚刚半夜的那个电话
其实只想对你说：“girl, 我爱你”
但我始终还是说不出口~
知道你的气还没消所以不敢说~~

这段日子里希望你能健健康康
切记：
喝多点水啊~
记得要吃东西啊~
注意你的胃风~~
注意你头痛的毛病~~

对不起不代表一切
但在此衷心向你道歉~~
对不起....

jiayou^^

2011

我没时间陪你
不想你等我
只想你做自己的东西
望你明白