everday i suffling

Currently I am on my way to Melaka…

Suddenly my mind comes out with so many things either I am in LRT station or bus station…

I am keep thinking if I waste my money to buy those miscellaneous stuff like calvin klein perfume that costs RM320, Samsung galaxy s2 that cost around RM 1500…

although I am using my money to buy it…

All of sudden, I feels want to buy car rather than spending money on those “STUPID” stuff….i wish to get a toyota vios in advance but with my low income every month how could I sustain??

I doe wan use my family money anymore…I wish to contribute more effort on my work so that I can earn more…as I saw today newspaper, no matter surplus or shortage, government will not easily lower down the prices of the food….

firstly, I am mad while I am reading that articles….today the star….

I am fucking angry with that, this does not make sense… it is not reasonable, why during the economic crisis, government can easily increase the price but why cant lower than the price even not in economic crisis…..for me, Malaysia is full of darkness…in front the citizens said: satu Malaysia…but for me, in this country only satu colours…NAH..o0o…pissed off…..]

Based on the budget 2011, why our prime minister can increase the subsidy for the soldiers..malaysia facing the big obstacles now that need to war with CHINA,RUSSIA and USA??

Ok,fine…u increase ur pasal, why our daigor wanna reduced the subsidy for the education field for 30%?? fucking brainless…I tell u….

Unfortunately, I was born in this country…anyone can tell me why??

Although Malaysia dun have any natural disaster or war…but where is the democratic that we are looking or even waiting?? Ya we got the democratic but only for the MCA….

Can I know why the labor force in malaysia is SLIGHTLY higher than the Indian in malaysia??

Or this is freaky funny….

Argh….i have no idea how to proceed my pathway with this society and environment…..

I am suffering and thinking is that I could and have the ability or capability to sustain under this situation…

Definitely, I have no idea…

Can someone please guide me and correct me so that I can follow the best pathway…

By this, It recall me that a poem that studied in form 4 or 5..it names as “The Road Not Taken”….

According to my Chinese philosophy, 人生没有的回头…

It takes risk…

SCENE OF MEMORIES

This picture is during my secondary that joined a team name call kadet reporter for sin chew daily..i was the vice president for my on duty year,,,sweet memories

first gathering for the 20th kadet reporter for melaka branch sin chew daily reporter....red colour shirt that one is our president during on duty years...beside her is me and another one is vice president as well...wahaha....so i sit chairs..

following outing with my best friend and "younger sister"...she quite pretty actually....wahaha

my UTAR housemate in the year 2009-2010...haha..too boring so we take picture at that time...xD

one of my brother...this pic had been taken while we are celebrating my ex-ex girl friend birthday in port dickson..

seriously i like this hair colours so muchieee....auburn brown...love it so muchiieee...haha...xD...
this picture had been taken in penang hotel while brother's second trip...nice trip ever...

my brother that had met an accident last year 10-10-2010..when we coming back from penang we go UM and visit him as well as celebrate brithday with him...hope all the best for him^^...

although i had a ton of happy moment before but my mood is totally

i am sorry

S= him
 will use to represent that person

此刻的我真的睡不着，
原本我不知道发生什么事为何那么多人不开心的~~
但junhou问我东西后，我就知道了~~

首先，我想说声对不起
因为如果我听junhou说买一支就没事~~
是我自作主张买了两支

TO: ron, justin, wei yee, darren and mei yeng
i am so sorry that happened this scenario...
i swear, i just c S hug all the girl excluding carmen and dolly...
i din say anything because S hug justin as well...
i thought he wan to console all drunker to sleep at that time..
by the way, is out of my expectation...sorry..
although i feel curious why S always ask us to go out from the room but i still keep silent at that time...
and i know carmen was inside the room it will not happen anything...

sorry, is my mistake...i keep myself awake and not to get drunk because i wanna clean all those rubbish... and i feel scary...
i know u all know that what S told me when smoking together with me....

i am not wan to explain anything...i an here to say sorry to u all...


me= anderson lee wei chieng promised that i will not bring any alcohol along while we go for trip...


weiyee: i think u know why ady what i told u not to drink alcohol anymore and ask u those weird question while we coming back to gombak...
meiyeng: i really dunno this things happened on u too...for u, i am so sorry....

cry

Time goes so fast…

Money makes world turn around…

I am totally disappointed and hurt…

Feels wanna cry loudly…

While refers back to my contact lists it just a joke…

I cant even find one people to chat with me…

I found one girls that remind me and makes me recall back my memory...

 i should thanks her a lot....
feels wanna cry at this moment but who should i talk to??
maybe i am just like a girl...
but besides cry i dunno how to express my feeling....
play basketball??NO...i have compression on my nerve roots..cannot...
snooker??waste money...
find my friend to chat??they no time...
i am so sorry about this...

one people that important in my life before

BUENO....
christpy....
rocky....
junk food that u like to eat ever....we cannot be friend anymore...
i know u got new boy friend ady...that people is with my expectation...
so i not curious at all....
pls look at my condition just now....
u will surprise...

i understood ur feelings nowsaday but i am here to wish u have a better life in the future...
wcm: sorry what i did before, i cant even forgive myself now..i found it ridiculous that i am so childish while making that rubbish decision...
u not need escaping me anymore...
pls love urself much ok??
maybe one day i will not around anymore...anderson will leave forever....

~.~

everything is my fault...
although i feels very tired while everything is happening....
i know sometimes is not my fault but i  still choose to say sorry first
becoz i appreciate our relationship wish to last longer....
definitely, i love you...
seriously, tired ady

LAST

today is my last day to wish u here....
wish u all the best on ur exam....good luck....bb....