sunshine

when i gonna have my sunshine
when i gonna resist my darkness
WHEN

this is a unknown for me,,
no matter how sad i am...
i decided wont tell anybody..
if there are any mistaken and unconvenience cause
I am SORRY

i just wan to be alone..
i hate those people are realistic while we treat them with the truly heart

NOTHING gonna changes my life
if i continue my life like tat..

stay happy..
as i told my friend to be happy
but

i cant do so as well...
i try to manage all my private things as good as possible
but
 i
failed....

if you are my firend....
pls..
when i wanna stay alone
pls let me go...

i hate people say me EMO
WTF
i dun have...

i juz thinking something that affect my mood...
many peope will tell me dun think, whenever how hard i try...
this obstacles and problem wont dissapear on my mind
FOREVER

FOR EHY:
i just try to let u go,but u not understand and wan blame me
ya..compare with previous u looking good but how am i??
i am not such good at all coz i changes ady..
i doe no what is HAPPINESS in my world..
only at hometown i can enjoy that HAPPINESS for a moment

u concern me, i appreciate
but so sorry to say that:"alone is better"

i enjoy playing basketball with them
enjoying snooker with them
enjoying drunk at dog house
enjoying gambling with them
enjoying shopping with them
i enjoy everything with such friend at least they treat u as a friend no matter who u r...

they are my good friend for my life..
u will hestitate who are them
they are..ah mo, doggie, jeffrey,ah neh, botak, albert, panda, ah kiam....
i know u know who are they...
if u know, u sure know when we are together wat 38 things will we do...

about that girl...i can say that we really a friend...
if u feel doubt about it nothing more i can comment
she is a good girl...when i got problem i will find her as well

few year ago ya i will

but after i come here i scare to find her anymore...
she looks so down, i doe wan to ma fan her....
so i learn how to alone..
thats why i prefer my ffriend happy than i coz my problem wont solve for my life...

SORRY...that 81 days i try to love u at that time...
1 years ago liao,,i very hate u
but i cant scold u and angry u
everything finish...

i wan to fight for my future..
next time exam must study hard ar...(for all my friend)

@#$%

why suddenly i feel so lonely and scary..
i see u smile i very happy but at the same time...i feel stress while facing u....
i doe wan like tat..
why every people say me looks so tension and pressure...
AM I??
i juz thinking all those things nia..
i juz wan hold ur hand and walking around...
distance for doing so is not far but CAN i???

没机会了

我们的缘分只是到朋友那个阶段

有时有些东西都很难预测

其实我的好感老早就像流沙这般的一直往一边去。

但还是没有说出来因为我知道我们永远都不可能

但现在至少我们还是朋友

虽然从没表白过

因为有些东西收藏在心中也是很不错啊！！

我很enjoy这个感受

虽然很辛苦但正所谓：“习惯成自然”

哈哈

但有些东西注定是你的就是你的

若

不是你的；你放再大的努力也得不到那个自己心中的答案

我能明白我们中间的隔膜

所以我也不想去告诉任何人我的事

因为这个感觉我觉得很好

至少让我了解到很多东西

自知之明

应该是最适合用在我的身上吧！！

心中有什么东西，我再也不说了

但在这里，我只想说，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，

XXXX....

谢谢你带给我的勇气

好了，雨过天晴....

我是真的；对不起；我知道我不能喜欢你的。。因为我没有本钱

stupid

我有得罪你吗？
有必要那么说吗？

妈的，我错啦〉。。
仗着有钱为所欲为，
人的可以说是没有一个相似的地方
你有你的观点
我有我的
不能混为一谈....

够了，我是时候照清楚自己了

good morning...darling...^^

recently i am damn stupid...
for example, yesterday i sleep at 3.35am
but hor i doe no why wait until 5.30am juz sleep( coz very hot i wake up take out my shirt)
hahaha
long time never wake up without alarm coz at here is damn tired...
my life is complicated....

my try to changes a look and changes all the bad thing
but i doe no i cant control myself o not..
coz i know if this time failure i wont successs for the rest of my time....

i try very hard to do so, but whose know???
when i was sad, whose i gonna to tell??
why i wan to cry, who are sitting beside me???
it is scary and complicated in my uni life//
actually unni life is quite fantastic
but for me is damn stupid..(doe no why)

haiz...
yaya...i juz wana tell, i miss u
but i cant chat with u everyday.
s sorry....

lzay to type in the eatly morning
 later wan take my friend car go to car wash
and 12pm wan go for extra class....
am i a good students???

my fault...

lolz...
Friday when i came back from kampar, my brother go to fetch me i think should feel happy de
but suddenly my stomach very pain then i tell my brother rush back to home coz i gonna go toilet...
stupid...
doe no what happen to me recently..
after finish all those thing( "cleaning")
my mum was came back, then my sister tell her :"u c his nail".]
lolz,me direct get scold by my mum coz my nail got color add on is black and not 1 finger but is whole..
what the %%%, my mum was get angry then so do i...
i go to take the nail polisher from my sister then clean it asap/...shit><

after that, i go to consult doctor then hor" u lake of sleep and rest"...
said doctor....lolz, me study at there no choice mah...haiz...
but sometimes me stomach reali pain la. and i doe no why how can i vomit suddenly..
am i pregnant???haha..

saturday, my mum got a cal from my dad
out curiosity, my dad got also de same case v me..=vomit+stomach pain
am i bring "luck" to home, iasking myself..
actually i should go to c my grandmum de coz her hand ady broke..
so i have to postone it ntil tonight....

at noon, go out v my friend at dp...
damn, many people....wait a parking also need to wait 10 min..
stupid la..i also doe no why i wan to wait there....

after that, go to my grandmum home when i finished buying...coz not enough buy..to be continue next time
when i reach my grandmum,
waseh, my cousin say me like gengster
my very very big big( my aunt de daughter and her ady got son) de cousin, she say me very cool and will get married soon..
actually not me doe wan talk is me lazy to talk...
then they say "wah, ur hair very long hor"?
for me, i not think that is long enough lo, i wan very very long...
so that i can chanegs hair style..
haha..
shuang..^^
but today is damn many people, CNY also not so many...
every people come bak from different place for visit my grandmum...
u cc, actually good people got many people caring and like de...
that feel so good...hehe..
today come back de got my 大姨，五姨，大舅，三舅 五舅。。that house ady full liao...and damn many poepl liao got all of them bring son la...bring son de son la...too many....around 50 people....
i think if CNY all of them come back together sure more than 100 de...haiz...
why so many people de???
got angpau but hor too many people hard to communicate..
sienz la...

OK la...doe wan write liao... wan c MU liao... c next time...
bb..muacks

sorry

i think we doe have the chance to stick together anymore...
thank for chatting with me this few day
i feel very happy although the time is short...
i doe no what is ur feeling
but
if i really say something that make u uneasy
i am sorry...

anyways, i hope u can take care urself...

and dear to my friend, all can get with flying color, so do i...^^