PAINFUL

I really been hurt by u after u told me everythings..
I am sorry
~he is my brother or friend even though i am not at hometown now....

I dunno why u want to do this type of things again!!
WHY??
u give me a good explanation can mah??
ya, i can accept ur current explanation but u think i am stupid ar...
i know still got somethings thats been hidden....

PLS...dun lie me anymore...i juz wan my life to be simple but u dun try to hurt again and again....
forgive me for posted it here...
but i also wan to express my feelings out only...

After i cut ur handphone, i immediate find somebody to relax because i really not happy..
i afraid if i staying at home, dunno what stupid things will i do....

i dunno what u wan from me, but for me i really nothing that are worth for u....

If u really love me!!!
pls, kill me asap...tired facing this type of problem everytimes
 

memories

Today i am happy and sad at the same time...
why???
actually i also doe no....
because my friend was brought me go to play futsal with his friends at ktar
after i played with them, i found that my stamina was drop seriously...
i cant even run more than half and hours...
well
i am enjoying playing with them at that moment....
they remind actually i still got a basketball team at hometown...
i miss the days that we all trained basketball together, we play around in stadium...
i am happy because i recall back my memories but on the others hand, i sad because i cant gather with them in short run...
i am home sick now....i wanna go back hometown as fast as possible...
i wan play basketball with them and talk cock also...

i miss my teammate...
i miss the time that we counting the score after a basketball match..(win de la...haha)
i miss the time after training we go to watch movie at DP with wearing the basketball shirt....
i miss the time we drink beer together....

BUT
now, everything was remain zero...singapore, kl and kampar...when we could have a gathering....??

wish: alex yong (4), jeffrey tan(13), albert chai (8), ivan tan(12)  be an effective stylist in the future
        lam  gor (5), kelvin tan(10) all the best in ur coming STPM....
        ah mo(11), finish ur on job training soon, be an effective business man...
        panda tan (15) fast fast graduate from ur engineering course...
        bui eh( 7) dun always fighting v other ar, slow down ur speed v ur motorcycle....
        rain xiao yu (14) ....dun drink too many beer hope u can find ur job soon
        duck (9) faster find a suitable job la...i know u at singapore now, take care
        me (6), dun too stress, all the best in exam....
        nickey tan( training partner)good luck in singapore saloons, next time help me cut lor...haha...

Hope PHANTOM members all the best....^^

不好的开始

虽然我很就没有更新我的部落格~今天更新真的纯属消遣
这次真的是要从零开始了
因为我的quantitative technique 竟然拿了可怕的23 分。
伤心叻！！
虽然之前考完后就觉得自己的分数不会很高
但真的是晴天霹雳叻！！
不过。。算了
我从现在开始努力就可以了咯（positive thinking,haha^^）

我已经很久没有回家了，忽然间真的很想家
家是个很舒服，很温馨的地方
毕竟有我的味道，哈哈
人家有酒是故乡浓；
我可以是“家有我才浓”
因为整个家就是我最吵，我最乱
想必我妈妈也很怀念我这个坏孩子.....
我答应，我一得空我就回去。。。。

真的是回家万岁！！

TIRED

actually i doe wan came here to post any blog liao....because when i wanna write thats mean my mood are nt very good...
i HATE
EVERYTHING
i doe no wat can i do???
i doe no what should i do???
HATE u

sunshine

when i gonna have my sunshine
when i gonna resist my darkness
WHEN

this is a unknown for me,,
no matter how sad i am...
i decided wont tell anybody..
if there are any mistaken and unconvenience cause
I am SORRY

i just wan to be alone..
i hate those people are realistic while we treat them with the truly heart

NOTHING gonna changes my life
if i continue my life like tat..

stay happy..
as i told my friend to be happy
but

i cant do so as well...
i try to manage all my private things as good as possible
but
 i
failed....

if you are my firend....
pls..
when i wanna stay alone
pls let me go...

i hate people say me EMO
WTF
i dun have...

i juz thinking something that affect my mood...
many peope will tell me dun think, whenever how hard i try...
this obstacles and problem wont dissapear on my mind
FOREVER

FOR EHY:
i just try to let u go,but u not understand and wan blame me
ya..compare with previous u looking good but how am i??
i am not such good at all coz i changes ady..
i doe no what is HAPPINESS in my world..
only at hometown i can enjoy that HAPPINESS for a moment

u concern me, i appreciate
but so sorry to say that:"alone is better"

i enjoy playing basketball with them
enjoying snooker with them
enjoying drunk at dog house
enjoying gambling with them
enjoying shopping with them
i enjoy everything with such friend at least they treat u as a friend no matter who u r...

they are my good friend for my life..
u will hestitate who are them
they are..ah mo, doggie, jeffrey,ah neh, botak, albert, panda, ah kiam....
i know u know who are they...
if u know, u sure know when we are together wat 38 things will we do...

about that girl...i can say that we really a friend...
if u feel doubt about it nothing more i can comment
she is a good girl...when i got problem i will find her as well

few year ago ya i will

but after i come here i scare to find her anymore...
she looks so down, i doe wan to ma fan her....
so i learn how to alone..
thats why i prefer my ffriend happy than i coz my problem wont solve for my life...

SORRY...that 81 days i try to love u at that time...
1 years ago liao,,i very hate u
but i cant scold u and angry u
everything finish...

i wan to fight for my future..
next time exam must study hard ar...(for all my friend)

@#$%

why suddenly i feel so lonely and scary..
i see u smile i very happy but at the same time...i feel stress while facing u....
i doe wan like tat..
why every people say me looks so tension and pressure...
AM I??
i juz thinking all those things nia..
i juz wan hold ur hand and walking around...
distance for doing so is not far but CAN i???

没机会了

我们的缘分只是到朋友那个阶段

有时有些东西都很难预测

其实我的好感老早就像流沙这般的一直往一边去。

但还是没有说出来因为我知道我们永远都不可能

但现在至少我们还是朋友

虽然从没表白过

因为有些东西收藏在心中也是很不错啊！！

我很enjoy这个感受

虽然很辛苦但正所谓：“习惯成自然”

哈哈

但有些东西注定是你的就是你的

若

不是你的；你放再大的努力也得不到那个自己心中的答案

我能明白我们中间的隔膜

所以我也不想去告诉任何人我的事

因为这个感觉我觉得很好

至少让我了解到很多东西

自知之明

应该是最适合用在我的身上吧！！

心中有什么东西，我再也不说了

但在这里，我只想说，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，我喜欢你，

XXXX....

谢谢你带给我的勇气

好了，雨过天晴....

我是真的；对不起；我知道我不能喜欢你的。。因为我没有本钱